I ran. I ran, and I ran, and I ran. I don't know how long I've been running; since early morning, and now the sun is set high above me. I'm trying to escape the sounds, the never ending moans and roars coming from behind my own chamber doors as I stood on the outside, pacing. I couldn't stand it anymore. I just can't stand around as my own mate, my own courted, the one I used to think the world of, pleasured himself with one of the maids. It was too much. Each cry of pleasure that was emitted from behind the grand oak doors twisted the dagger in my heart around and around, and I am afraid I will simply fall apart. And the whispers... Oh god, the whispers. The maids know everything--their gossip grows into a grapevine, twisting around the entire court and working it's way through so that everyone knows that the one man who doesn't want the queen, is her own mate. Every other nobleman swoons at my charm and personality, while my own courted simply grows bored with me and prefers the comforts of the courtesans. All because his heir passed and I haven't been able to produce another for him, no matter how roughly he takes me. I can't take it anymore.
My paws thrummed against the sod rhythmically as I slowed, my breaths haggard as oxygen ripped through my lungs. The pain gave me a thrill, made me feel as if I am getting what I deserve. I should have never courted the king. As a prince he had been notorious for his ways with females, I just thought he would settle once he was married and had me... But... I can't even think about it anymore. I slowed, coming across stone runes. Light faded hazel eyes scanned the scene before me briefly for the presence of anyone who may interrupt me in my wallowing. I didn't see anyone, and I continued until I stood in what appeared to be something of a stone circle made by several human-made stone buildings. I slowed to a halt, my breathing ripping past my airways. I stood like this until I got my breathing under control, and that is when all hell broke loose.
An angry roar escaped me, all of my pent up emotions flying through my jowls as I released the feral, intimidating sound. I surged forward, planting my front paws on the wall of the building before me, and I pushed off of the stone architecture. Petite, slim golden hued form surged forward toward the next wall, swiping at it with my paws as another feral sound escaped my lips. I continued this several times, taking my anger out on the ancient buildings before the dam broke, and I halted all movement, my pale hazel hued eyes closing as my skull lowered, sadness overtaking me. I felt so unwanted, so neglected. He hasn't shown me any form of love in months, aside from in public. And then I can even feel that it's all an act. I collapsed onto the smooth dirt ground, resting my head against the sod as labored breaths escaped me. My pale golden hued fur shone with a healthy gleam beneath the heat of the horizon, thin golden stripes intermixing with white patches on my hide. Petite svelte lithe form was well muscled, a result of the plentiful running excursions I've taken up in my attempts to escape the pain of my own household. I've been told that I am beautiful, the poster tiger for a perfect vixen; yet, whenever I am under the gaze of my own courted, my own beloved, I feel as if I am nothing but a bug beneath his paw.
Finally. I am in a place where there is no one around to make judgments, no one around to study my every move. I don't have to worry about keeping up appearances or pretending to be someone I'm not. I can simply be me, and let my emotions run wild without someone there to critisize me.
Re: you can be my dirty little secret.. [llyr] « Reply #1 on Apr 19, 2009, 2:07pm »
Llyr
x three steps took him towards the stream. he looked wairly at it, his friend smirked at him. Llyr shook his cranium and took a half step backwards like he could read his friends mind. the stream was fast running, up to his shoulders if he was to fall or slip in. more a like slip in thought Llyr with a faint smile appearing on solid librums. Llyr saw his friends muscles tense and Llyr lept over the stream but being so far off his back Appendages slipped off the wet and dirty bank. shaking his legs from the liquid crystals he lifted them off the island of the small rocks. Llyr growled and moved forward. it didn't make him furious it was just the morning. it was cold, it had just rained, no sun as far as he was aware and slippery ground. his friend was being a bastard and he was tired. ignoring his friends calls for him, Macula walked into the Castle. Its tiled floors were stone cold under his paws. the staircases to all the different rooms and chambers. Llyr looked around to see if anyone was around, nothing.
x silently walking towards the staircase he saw some paintings up the wall, all the way he went up. All with humans, one with a tiger roaring as a human with a chair. a low laugh escaped the hessians throat as he saw the humans face. trotting futhur up now he felt a bit colder and now hoped the steps would end. The tiles wern't stop now, they were colored tiles. they just broke away from the stone. calming his exitment to un-found things by his naked eye he began to walk. a few walked past but didn't answer his authority in these halls and anyway they were probberly lower in the ranks than he. so he didn't know what they were getting exited about. thinking about his father he wondered who would be his dutchess? thinking about it made his head hurt and wish for someone, but they wouldn't come without effort. coming on a flat place now he finally let out a sigh, he was finally up here. leaping across the hall he saw an open down and lowered his cranium wondering what sort of curious animal was inside there. maybe food, he though smiling, maybe just a male or female. he walked through the door.
x he saw a male and female licking each other, Llyr growled and sighed, turning around he trotted down corridor and looked through the window. He saw a female looking tiger on stone hill. Padding towards the steps he lept down some of them. He heard a few tigers walk past a Lion snarled at him but took no notice. The steps were stone cold as he went down. On the floor of the porch the light poured through. Llyr trotted past the fountain that thundered, many sat beside it and talked to each other. The load murmers of those talking freely, not caring if anyone heard. It wouldn't matter, a few words were spoken about the Kandarshin king and queen but the Stud ignored them. A few females turned their cranium to his direction and smiled, Llyr raised his head like a sort of, watz up with a hint of flirtyness. Llyr prefered to see this lone female before some idiot wanted her before him. Llyr smiled at the guard and nodded, “hey. going to the stone hill. get out of the city for a while eh?!” llyr smiled and the guard and him laughed. The guard nodded and let him through with a have a nice day sir, and opened the gate.
x Llyr nodded and walked onto the soft grass. A break from the cobbled floor. Trotting towards the stream where his friend tried to push him he lept over without another thought. He trotted towards the stone hill, looking up he saw the other alliances kingdom. Ignoring his rising anger he turned his head. Seeing the female he rose the roar through his throat and librums and let it carry to anyone’s auds who was attempting for this female. It showed he was now with her and he wanted them to be on their own or trouble would descend. Coming towards this female he stopped a metre off, bowed and got a bit closer, he didn’t recognize her, never had seen her, well…he hadn’t seen many other females accept those in the court which was boring. “hello lovely lady, I am Llyr. I do not shorten my name, but never mind that. I hope you don’t mind me being here. I just saw you from a……distance…” Llyr said, a pause for he didn’t want to make it sound like he was spying on her or tracking her down like a maniac.
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Re: you can be my dirty little secret.. [llyr] « Reply #2 on Apr 19, 2009, 2:50pm »
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Eye lids fell over hazel eyes, closing off my view of the world for a moment as I got lost in thought. I don’t know what to do anymore. I wish to try and give Aldrin a heir, but I lost those first three cub all those years ago, and had several stillborns after. Now at this point Aldrin just refuses to bed me, favoring the attentions of the courtesans and maids instead—it is no secret that he has probably sired some illegitimate cubs by a few females in court, but as far as I know, no males. I can understand his anger, but if he would atleast try…
My delicate skullary raised at the sound of a male’s roar not too far off. The sound of a male possessively staking a claim on a female. Hazel eyes uneasily scanned the scenery around me, catching site of the distant, faraway sprawling kingdom of Bartholomew. My nares crinkled for a moment as if catching wind of a foul stench when I thought of the other kingdom, a troubled feeling setting in within the pit of my stomach. What would be the likeliness of a tiger coming across me being of Bartholomew blood? I can’t take my chances. I rose upon four appendages, ready to flee, when I heard a deep, distinctively male voice dancing through the sound waves behind me. I gracefully turned to face him, head held high and brave. He had come in the direction of my opposing kingdom… But perhaps he is a loner? I can only hope so. It would only be my luck for me to bump into a high ranked Bartholomew, and bring an early start to an already brewing war. He, like me, is of a golden tint, so he cannot be a commoner of sorts, if he is part of any kingdom at all. I caught his name, white-tipped ears flicking forth. Llyr. Unique. He seems kind enough, but god knows whether or not he could pose a threat—the one day that I don’t allow my ladies-in-waiting or a noble knight to shadow my every move, I bump into a tiger I haven’t seen in court before. Brilliant.
I instinctively took a step back, uneasy with being of such a close distance with a male that I am not familiar with. I cannot possibly let him know who I am, if he is in fact a Bartholomew. Hazel eyes met his golden ones, my posture at ease and not giving off any signs of my inner turmoil. Pale gold striped tail flickered thoughtfully behind me, svelte form standing confidently.
“No, no. I do not mind; this is unclaimed land, afterall,” soft lilting vocals danced gracefully through the soundwaves, my voice melodic and distinctively feminine. My mind went in a frenzy, trying to think whether or not I should give him a false name. “I am Juliana. It is a pleasure to be of your acquaintance, Llyr.” I lied easily, not sign of any lying betrayal in my voice at all—I nearly believed that I was dubbed Juliana, rather than Evelyn. I suppose being around so many lying, deceiving politicians each day has benefited me. “Tell me, Llyr. Do you hold obligations to either of the feuding kingdoms?”
Re: you can be my dirty little secret.. [llyr] « Reply #3 on Apr 20, 2009, 1:19am »
Llyr
x Llyr looked at the female suspisiously, his slate black orbs scanning her body. Strong built female and was the same hint of colors as himself, Golden. Flicking his plumage as she took a instive step back. Llyr thought about leaving behind this female if she wasn't the talkative type. Some smells touched his nares. It prickled his senses and his whiskers quivered just slightly. If you were not paying attention then you would have seen his head raise a bit and his auds prick and flicker. It was a sound from the Batholemow kingdom, a sort of yowl. Llyr wondered what it was, looking up to the window which he had spied the female from. Nothing was around and Llyr guessed it was the male and female in the hall of mirrors. Turning his attention back on the female he smiled, she was probberly the first decent female that had made slight contact. Llyr thought for a moment if this female was actually worth seeking for a mate. Llyr scrunched his nose and thought again, lets just sit here and look all preety. sitting down he placed his paw infront of himself. his claws piercing into the soil and moving it, but he didn't do anything more to make the female nervous.
x tensing his muscles he lifted his cranium as she spoke, “No, no. I do not mind; this is unclaimed land, afterall,” Llyr thought about that but didn't belive her mood really wanted him to be here. Licking his lips, the past rabbit still lingered between them. The Rabbit was only young, but bit enough for him. Llyr had caught it and eaten it. Then his friend tried to get the rabbit, but already it was bones, but still his friend raced after him, then they both stopped and there he was having to jump onto the next bank. Llyr smelt his friend here, his smell lingered just slightly. Llyr shook his head, his friend thought he owned this, chuckling to himself, it wasn't loud, but a inaudiable chuckle. nothing more. Being lazy he didn't reply to her saying. It wasn't worth it. Wasting energy just to say yes, plus it would bore her further.
x “I am Juliana. It is a pleasure to be of your acquaintance, Llyr.” Llyr nodded to her and smiled towards her thinking of a clever come back but what clever thing would pull this off and impress her. "What makes you travel to stone hill, Juliana." He wasn't convinced, she didn't look like a Juliana. Llyr looked to the floor and then began to think about saying about which alliance he followed, he would have to lie quickly, "Alliances mean nothing to me." He shortened it, he didn't mean it to sound snappy, but it sounded convincing though. He looked at the female, wondering if both of them might be lying about something or other.
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Re: you can be my dirty little secret.. [llyr] « Reply #4 on Apr 20, 2009, 8:03pm »
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I eyed the brute curiously, delicate skullary tilting slightly to the side in a show of thoughtfulness. He doesn’t seem to mind being in my presence. In fact, he doesn’t seem to recognize me at all. Either he is a commoner in Kardashin who hasn’t been in my presence before—unlikely, given his coloring—or he is of Bartholomew blood. That or he is simply a loner. I hope so; I am not in the mood for feuding, and I like being around this male. He carries himself confidently, but not with arrogance. I gracefully lowered to a relaxed sitting position, my movements holding a regal air I have developed out of habit from being around the old money tigers in court. Striped tail curled around my front paws. I inhaled steadily, trying to clear my mind from the stress of my everyday life. This should be my place to escape, where I don’t have to worry about the trivial things of being a queen like providing a heir or looking elegant and pretty all the time. I exhale; releasing the tension, pain, fear; clearing my mind.
<i>”What makes you travel to stone hill, Juliana?”</i>
Hazel eyes flickered upward to meet his at the tone he used to speak my alias name, but I didn’t cast any facial expressions to hint at my unease. He couldn’t have possibly not believed me, could he? No, he has to have believed me. I am Evelyn, Kardashin Queen, the most persuasive and influential female in the region, I told myself confidently. Reassured, I refocused, recalling his question. <b>”Family drama,”</b> I smiled, somewhere caught between bashful and playful, <b>”You know. Just had to escape from it all for a while.”</b> My smile widened slightly, growing more genuine. I was beginning to grow more comfortable conversing with Llyr. It feels good to talk to someone knowing they aren’t thinking about my personal life or that they aren’t going to analyze everything I say and start gossip or rumors. I feel so free, so laid back and confident. It really is nice to escape it all.
My gaze with his broke away for a moment, hearing a sound I knew all too well. However, it was coming from the east, where the Bartholomew kingdom is located. The castle, being the closest building from where Llyr and I stood, is where I presumed the sound to be coming from. The sound resembled that of the moans and yowls that often escaped my chambers, coming not from me, but from Aldrin and whatever female he has stowed away in there. My eyes clenched closed for a moment, clearing my mind again. I can’t get distracted, or let the dull ache engulf my heart again. If I do I don’t know how much longer I’ll last.
I heard his second comment, muscles I hadn’t even noticed were tense relaxing more. Although his comment left room for holes and he could very well be a part of some kingdom, the way he brushed it off convinced me enough that I am safe even if he is Bartholomew. At least he isn’t really lying, just leaving room for loopholes in his replies. I can live with that. <b>”Good to know,”</b> a smile ghosted my lips, <b>”it’s depressing to see kingdoms so alike to be warring against each other so. It makes you wonder what really started it all, for it to escalate this far.”</b> I stopped myself from saying anymore, not wanting to reveal too much political knowledge. Would an innocent little lone commoner know the politics of this region like the back of her paw? I doubt it.
Re: you can be my dirty little secret.. [llyr] « Reply #5 on Apr 21, 2009, 1:16am »
Llyr
x llyr growled at the yowls and looked down at his feet, that was probberly the male and female he saw, pinning his auds and snarling quietly, but turning to Juliana he pricked his ears, settled and sat down, licking his scar on his shoulder that nearly had killed him from lose of blood. llyr though about this mare, she was very preety, nothing compared to the female in the chamber. llyr watched her head tilt and he smiled, her face was more petite, perfectly built to her body. you could tell that she was a female, he a male. for llyrs face, snarls and attitude. llyr flicked his tail, attempting to try block the growing sounds. llyr watched her mouth, he eyes seemed relaxed, so llyr relaxed his body, he licked his whiskers once again, taking a sharp breath to take his nerves down. family drama the female had said to him, what did she mean? a death? a betrayel? something that just made her turn and run? llyr didn't dare ask for she looked like she could snap at him angrily if he annoyed her, but the same with him, he wouldn't take chances with the first female that was going well.
x "So Juliana, do you have a mate?" a vital question before he would do anything more, maybe she would say yes, and he would keep talking, he wouldn't be rude and walk away, but he just wouldn't ask her to join him for things. hopefully she was in the batholomew kingdom. probberly not, he had never seen her before. she looked like she wasn't pregnant but look tired, weary, maybe tired for life. llyr took a step forward, narrowing the two steps between them, he was a step and a half away, but he wouldn't hurt her. llyr lowered his cranium and sat down, showing her that he wouldn't hurt her. smiling gently he breathed in slowly, this is going better than i thought you see, llyr wanted someone to talk to and to love. not to just meet, llyr tried to let this female get a bit closer, to see if she was ready to have someone new, or get closer to him. llyr wanted to know the truth about things, but no, he did not ask. sadly. "they are not alike, w...they have different ways to each.....other." llyr growled silently to himself for nearly saying we. it would have been the end.
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